How.

How it feels to be happy? I don't know, I never felt it.
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Well, now I know how it feels to be happy, but I didn't know it's so easy to get sad again.
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Now I don't want to feel happy anymore. Because everytime I get happy, I get so sad after it that I can't stop crying.
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Today was a happy day, even thought I know I'm going to feel sad tonight, and even lonely.
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How it feels to be excited? I don't know, I don't wanna know...